"Nothing In Life Is To Be Feared. It Is Only To Be Understood.~ ~Marie Curie

Panic at the thought of doing a thing is a challenge to do it. 

~~Henry S. Haskins

Thinkie is at her doctors today getting more tests to see if her cervical cancer has metastasized. She is terrified and rightly so. To tell you the truth so am I. She had to wait a week just to get the tests done and then another week to get the results. It seems to me that this process fosters the fear in her and all who love her. I have watched her turn herself inside out waiting for these tests. In the beginning I thought to myself that 'these are just the tests so why fear them?' But I understand now how the waiting feeds into the fears that seem like they are crushing you.

How do you tell someone that the fear they are experiencing is making things worse? There is an easy answer to that question. You do not tell them. You support them. You cry with them. And you pray for them. Some things are not placed in our hands to manipulate. In this case 'Fear is the driver and we are all on the bus for the entire route'.

“Each time we face our fear, we gain strength, courage, and confidence in the doing.”

~~Unknown

Do you know why the person that said this is 'Unknown'? Because I do not really think that they believed what they were saying. My father told me that a soldier faces fear in every combat situation and that it is that fear that helps him stay alert and alive. That makes more sense to me.

"To fear is one thing.  To let fear grab you by the tail and swing you around is another."  ~~Katherine Paterson, Jacob Have I Loved

Having said  fear, in this situation, is inevitable; letting it take over your life is the tragedy. Of course I am not the one actually facing the fear. I am sitting in the audience watching life's play unfold before me. So giving advice is a difficult thing to do. As in a play; the audience is helpless to assist the actors. And since the play was written by Karma and  and Destiny; rewrites are not possible.

So what we do, what I do, is sit and watch what unfolds and react to it. Believe me when I say that I am not always able to be on top of things like I should be. My own fears weigh me down.

"Fear is just your feelings asking for a hug."~ ~Danielle Sanchez-Witzel and Michael Pennie, My Name is Earl

Zolang ik adem Ik zal niet toestaan ​​dat mijn angsten om mijn liefde te vernietigen. Dat is mijn eed.

Yeah! My Dutch sucks!!

Love you Thinkie

Love ya all,

Night